Time changes everything, even you and I have changed

*PHILANA!
Hey hey. I am a 158cm tall person called PHILANA. I’m partially blind without my specs, you see I’m short sighted so I can see you but I can’t see who you are unless you’re up close. I’m a nerdy girl who loves reading don’t you? Even though I’m a nerd, I’m still a pretty good dancer.
Mostly, I heart history. A-ha! I know you guys hate history!
That's because I'm, as shown above, an American air force brat, too cold and proud to mix around with people like you. I'm constantly moving around; from Arizona to New Mexico to little sunny Singapore. Heh I live in a red dot cool or what?
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The rain, the winter spring has made us fade away


I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

Christel Eva Joyce Travis Hannah Siyuan Yixin Amos 1E3 2E2 3E2

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Vulnerable.
Saturday, August 6, 2011 || 3:08 PM



Word of the day is Vulnerable.

vul·ner·a·ble
adjective /ˈvəln(ə)rəbəl/ 

Susceptible to physical or emotional attack or harm
- we were in a vulnerable position
- small fish are vulnerable to predators

(of a partnership) Liable to higher penalties, either by convention or through having won one game toward a rubber.

Don't you guys hate it when you feel absolutely vulnerable? I know I do. Recently I've been put into a lot of vulnerable positions, some that have changed my life forever, some were not so life changing. It's been possibly around 2 months + since I've last updated but yeah. You guys know how it's like to have final year exams right? I guess you do. Well one factor that makes me vulnerable is stress and my friends. Sometimes you aren't able to please everyone at the same time and it comes back to bite you in the butt. I apologize for this slightly depressing post but I'm still trying to decide if I want to go to the local library or not. Hmm Decisions, decisions.

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Looking forward...
Friday, June 10, 2011 || 6:23 PM



Hey peeps :D It's been a long time coming, but I'm here now~ A lot of things have happened in the past few months. You guys know how I've been preparing for the SYF with the rest of my school's SYF team and WE ACHIEVED GOLD *CLAP CLAP* (: HAHA.
I did quite well during my examinations. I got 1 A , 4 Bs and one F... the F was for A mathematics but who cares? I only need 5 subjects to get into the poly course of my choice so I'd rather work harder in improving the five subjects then working hard to pass one subject and letting the rest fall to the ground. I've been planning for my future and I finally found a course that combines my interests and practicality of surviving in the real word. It's Arts Buisness Management. (: I have to get 11 points for my L1R4 to be able to qualify and enter that course. >< Looks like I'm going to be working hard for the next few months. I apologize for not being able to update my blog as frequently as I used to, but I hope this post makes up for it.

Love you guys <3

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Handful of Pikachus.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011 || 9:11 PM



HEY PEOPLE OF THE WORLDDDDD :D I'm posting for the first time in two months. :X I feel bad for neglecting my blog but my studies and SYF for dance comes first. Heh us dancers made ms kay super happy today because we practiced before she got here and she came when we were doing the last minute of the 5.23 mins long dance. Keke. WORKING HARDDD. JWSS DANCE CLUB FIGHTING!!!!!!!!! We're aiming for gold :P Even the school leaders; the principal, vp, HOD of performing arts believe in us. I just hope we can believe in ourselves. OHHHH I want a handful of pikachus. I keep imitating the 'pika pika?' part and annoyed alot of my friends especially Fazurah (: OH HAPPY DAY! See yea guys soon I hope!

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My hand is yours to hold.
Monday, January 31, 2011 || 7:39 PM



Aishhh~ It's been raining none stop in the little island of Singapore ): I was super dee duper cold today! Big thanks to Jie Le for his overwhelming huge NCC jacket. Heh it kept me warm for a long time before dance ;D Oh oh and its really really comfortable and long but maybe its because Jie Le is like... two heads ++ taller than me?

So its no surprise that the bottom of his jacket is almost reaching my knees Hehe. I didn't have focused test today since its Mother Tongue focused test so I slacked in the canteen until 315++ then went to SC room for some meeting. Sigh I have to be in this student initiated project for SC.. I'm already undertaking NYAA GOLD Project with Christel they all + my SYF trainings are like almost everyday I still have to do this student initiated project which calls for a proposal. ;X Ms Azeanni didn't know what Geek Week was and made fun of my geeky glasses ): My glasses deserve respect for helping me to see! Yes yes I love my glasses!

:D BYE PEOPLE OF THE WORLD! I shall afk more.

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Guardian Angel
Tuesday, January 11, 2011 || 7:39 PM



I FINALLY HAVE FREE TIME YIPEEE! Haha. I'm so so so sorry for not being able to update, I've been busy with school stuff >.< I also feel bad towards Sora cause I've kinda been ignoring her quietness these past few days cause well I don't know how to help that much. Thankfully she's getting back to her old self (: I'm glad and thankful for that.

After school today I stayed back to wait for Desmond with Eva, Christel and Travis. We did our homework at the back of the canteen. All of them were doing their mathematics homework while I did my english homework >.< I feel happy that their doing what I already did even though their in the best class and I'm in the worst for Mathematics cause well, maths isn't exactly my forte you know?

Oh oh oh and guess what, this whole year I've NOT SAID ONE VULGARITY. Not one dirty or bad word. (: *claps* One less vulgar is one step to being a better person. I need knew specs ): I think my spectacle degree rose a little. Sigh. I hate being short sighted AND having Astigmatism but I guess I should count myself lucky as there are people suffering from worst in the world.
Have a great year ahead guys :D see you soon!

P.S: When I see you my heart goes doki-doki, can you feel my heart beat? :P
P.S.S: Will you be my guardian angel? (:

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Do you ever feel like a plastic bag..?
Monday, January 3, 2011 || 6:17 PM



I had a blast today. Sigh, it's the last day of the holidays! I'm not ready for school. Sometimes I feel like I just want to go back to my younger years to be able to avoid reality even if its just for a little while. Anyway on to what I did today!

I went to Eva's house and did a few questions for my Advanced Mathematics homework. OMG Trigonometry is HARD STUFF. >.< I have around 9 questions left because I don't understand them sigh. Going to school at around 6.30am tomorrow to get taught mathematics. Yeah, I was serious about the studying thing. GRRR. I wonder whose gonna be my seat mate this year, I hope it's a different person so I can get to be closer with other people as well. EVERYONE GOODLUCK FOR TOMORROW!

LANA AND READERS HWAITING!!! heh. Thanks for all your reviews guys(: keep em coming alright? :D

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Let's be happy while we can.
Thursday, December 30, 2010 || 8:04 PM



Good evening! Hahas. Technically, its night but whatever. I learned many new words today :D *clap clap* This morning I went to Joyce's house with Christel and slacked watching billy elliot and snow dogs ;X the acting in snow dogs kinda... sucks? I can't believe I used to like that movie >.< Anyways we looked through polytechnic booklets and searched about JCs online. OMG SERIOUSLY WE FELT LIKE WE WERE GOING TO DIE NEXT YEAR. HELP USSSS! We made a promise to enjoy these last few days while we can and next year, study like maniacs. I think I'm going to have to start drinking starbucks frappes. AAAAAAAAAH. The horror T_T.

I can already imagine next year will be all about studying. Sigh I want year camp but not study camps? Next year might be the only year without an adventure camp. But let's not fret shall we? LANA AND FRIENDS 2011 HWAITING! HAHAHA.

I also followed them to buy nerd specs. I want to get REAL nerd specs because yes, I wear specs sometimes due to my short sightedness. ;X Its not really that bad but yeah, I want to be fashionable like those korean and japanese people in the dramas who wear real degree'd nerd spectacles. I just wish I can get those kind of specs for myself. Anyone willing to sponsor me a ticket to korea for two weeks? I could then probably buy my specs there and receive it before I leave to fly back to Singapore. I wish I wish I wish. Sigh. AJA AJA FIGHTING FOR US ALL! see ya guys next time yeah? (:

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